Tough Choice!

Been 3 months since my last post. Things are going great. My best buddy got into his dream institution. One more is struggling. Future looks hopeful.

Image and video hosting by TinyPic This is a gist of my experiences with bikes. Learnt riding dad's CD100SS at 11, progressed to Bajaj Caliber 115 at 14 (if you remember the hoodibaba ad from 2003 Cricket worldcup). Bought my first bike in 2011, when I had to do a 38 kilometer highway commute to office on a daily basis. A 2010 Yamaha ss125, which is pretty much a great ride in city, however loses that "edge" on highways because of small engine capacity. Except for occasional punctures, my ride has never ever let me down in the last 4 years. Great pickup, pathetic mileage, cool looks even before fz's started storming the city! The longest ride i had was the one from Chennai to Vellore, which was a good experience with a 125cc.

SS125 2011~2015
It's been four years since I started planning for a bike, decent city handling and good touring capabilities were primary requirements.
I had returned to Chennai, got into a startup, started living my dream. There are few more bits and pieces that would complete the jigsaw. A powerful bike and a good camera are worth mentioning. Started analyzing all that's available on market. There were limited options based on price band. My max budget was not exceeding 2.5 lakhs. I had to go through a lot before I could decide on something. 

Was very keen on elder siblings from KTM's stables. However had to decide against them as their riding position was bit off for me and had stiff suspension, which I felt uncomfortable. Liked the ABS part though. Next came CBR 250 ABS version. Called  all the showrooms across Chennai out of which 2 gave very vague answers and wanted me to deposit 5000 in cash and they "Might" get bikes in future and they will allot that to me. Remaining denied flat out that one cannot just get hold of that bike. It's not available was the answer to my queries. They were bidding hard to sell a 150 CBR, any colour, immediate delivery. But it didn't just strike the chord! (while this is being written, news is that Honda supremo almost confirms facelift 250 and 150). 

 Hyosung was the next choice. Aquila is a proven name, been in this country for ten years or so. Twin cylinder 250cc, wonderful cruising abilities. But price tag was on the other side of my budget. So Nope. And my friend was wary of their spares and service capabilities. There was no sign of R25 or R3 anywhere near, looks like may be in distant future(again while this piece is being put together, there are rumors that it might be R3, and definitely in a few months). A biking enthusiast friend suggested Karizma. I have been in NCR for so long that I couldn't bring myself to consider one, let alone purchase. I even went to the extent of considering the infamous “Inazuma”. Price works for me. Looks didn’t score well. Twin cylinder, which actually should mean good touring capabilities. But the downside, they had sold like 300 odd bikes in the last financial year. And it gets better. When I actually started considering that, there came an announcement that finally Suzuki axed INAZUMA.

 Honestly till this point of time I wasn't even considering a Royal Enfield. Had to look through all their models. Read reviews, feedbacks, pros and cons. Finally decided I would have to choose between desert storm(classic 500) and thunderbird 500. Test ride of both showed me the small differences, and riding position. Riding is more upright in the classic, more relaxed in the thunderbird. Initially I thought thunderbird 350 will do fine. When I came to know that 500 has a fuel injection, there’s no turning back on that. Some might feel what’s the big deal? But choosing between carburetor and FI made the deciding point. Enquired at i-speed motors Ayanavaram.
day out with showroom TB500!
Staff were responsible and courteous. Read on a forum that RE offers experience rides. Inquired about the same and took a thunderbird 500 for a full day. Definitely wanted a experience ride, because had my reservations on the thumper’s wading through capabilities. Wanted a bike that would be nimble as well. A big one as big as thunderbird 500 , tipping the scales at 196kgs? I didn’t imagine it would be nimble in any possible way. But a day’s ride proved me wrong. It zipped through traffic. Bike was so nimble that I could practically swoosh through any bend that I wanted to, only disadvantage being the breadth of the vehicle, which warrants caution while tackling hard twists. 

There was an empty highway and smashing rains on the return journey. Which had me fall hard in love with the thumper. Paid booking charges on the same night and delivery happened in 10 freakin days!

Thunderbird 500 Marine blue it is.


Looking forward - (s)miles ahead!

Being an Idealist

Being an idealist sucks and is awesome at the same time.

How to recognize one?

You were that kid, who was lost in a train of thoughts during classes. One look outside the window and end up being in a magical world. One stare at the wall, a movie(read : your own imaginative one) starts projecting on the wall, one look into numbers and you can weave a story involving the numbers, you do not read a book while you read a book, but you watch a movie inside your head while actually reading a book. You find reading fantasy genre extremely gripping. You find an unknown attraction towards movies, songs & books that make you experience slightly darker version of feelings. The likes of Tim burton's and Black swan. You can always think about the impossible without even having the slightest remorse of whether there is a possibility of that phenomenon happening or not (not all the above given points should be applicable, however a good number of them might be applicable).

Idealists are complained to be self absorbed, fit for nothing, selfish, dreamers. We imagine a lot. True. However imagination is something that lets us have our way with perfection in this imperfect world. I do not claim that perfection is the only thing to seek in life. I've learnt that "To recognize" perfection in imperfection, is what life is all about. Idealist never loses that sense of fascination, "THAT" glimmer in eyes when one sees something new. Anything can fascinate an idealist. A rainbow, starlit sky, dark sky, sunset, horizon, rain, an anime, a well created character in a fictitious production, be it in writing or in visual medium.

Idealism drives you crazy. It gives that itch in your brain,which you cannot scratch. Only those who have experienced it can feel how horrible it feels to have that itch. It makes you seek the impossible. Wants the best, not to settle for something less. It's very helpful when you need to plan for a long term vision, where being overambitious makes sense in the long run. Being a part of almost 10 percent of the population is no fun either, which in-turn causes being ridiculed, bullied and whatnot.


The downside is, having lots of unrealistic expectations might break you. One fine day, you will get to realize that the whole life you have been living is based on lies and there was nothing you could have done to change it. The most difficult moment is one when you have no other go, than to accept reality, by partly burying idealism for the sake of pragmatism. Too much of idealism is not a problem in itself. However idealism when not able to realize in real life, might cause serious repercussions like depression. All we need is a vent to channel through the idealism. Creativity is at it's best because of idealism. People become Mad genius when brimming with idealism. There is no stopping them as they don't care about the difference between reality and imagination while they have "zoned out". Some of the best creator's are claimed to be idealists.Vincent van Gogh, J.R.R. Tolkien(lord of the rings), C.S.Lewis(The Chronicles of Narnia), A.A.Milne(Winnie the pooh), Bill Watterson(Calvin and Hobbes), J.K.Rowling(Harry potter), Johnny Depp, Tim burton(movie's like Alice in wonderland, Frankenweenie, Nightmare before christmas, Charlie and the chocolate factory). For a more comprehensive list have a look at this link. The secret lies in always being in touch with that madness. which actually defines the person you are. 

Idealist's also dream about an Utopian state,where no poverty, no ignorance exists. They cannot digest the fact that, creation of such a state is impossible, and when they come to realize that it is impossible they get destroyed inside piece by piece. They would curse their own self for not being able to contribute to the society in a meaningful way.
 
Mainstream job's might not be pleasing for an idealist. That urge to do something different, try new things cannot be satiated by a well defined, process oriented job. If you are an idealist, seeking to come out of the routine, create a plan. Tomorrow might not be the day you execute them, however you can do it someday, and your idealism will be the driving force in actualizing this very plan.





All above views are personal and might contain factual inaccuracies! 

Steering my life or, so I wish to imagine!

Last two weeks had been magical...! I have experienced how powerful one's thoughts can be, and create one's own reality. Something I've longed all along, to be a game changer, to work with dreams, to teach, to plan, manage, and most important of all, to work in a place that's not corporate. To find a job that is not dependent on routine / mechanized task completion was the most challenging task. Though I did manage to find one. I still couldn't believe that it looked like a serendipitous event that, I happened to see a comment on Facebook that someone is required to get into a start-up to take up responsibilities. As stated in my first post all i want is to LIVE and not just survive.
 
I don't intend to ask for too much from life. Just one where i wake up with enthusiasm, and not with these exact words in my mind " what purpose do I have, in waking up today? What difference is it going to make if I'm going to take a day's leave? " which sadly I've done for almost nineteen years in my life till date. I held up my end of the bargain for almost three and a half years, for the sake of parents' in being with corporate and working for the sake of money (heh - that was shorter than the time I spent doing my engineering). But three and half years was the best i could possibly do. It really was killing me from the inside out. Every passing day became something that was intolerable. I did reach the limit some time back. All it required was that little push to kick start something awesome. And i did find that somewhere on the net, A statement that felt like, it was written for the only purpose of being directed towards me. I have met few people who are really good at hiding and or suppressing their urge to show the middle finger, and not doing something they wish they did. That's what the society expects me to do so too. To hide my urge, forget my passion, be part of the herd till the end, and live a life filled with regrets. I'm lucky that my parents are okay with my way of life, though they were apprehensive in the beginning. Human kind is conditioned way too much that being a part of the herd is the reason why one is born. Conditioning that runs too deep that it's almost next to impossible to break it. All we want is, to be identified with someone or something, that we need not think about explaining anything, just the mention of some name should be sufficient to identify with.And if you are going to be someone who's going to stay away from the herd, a word of caution, those who want to NOT follow the herd are the one's who are stoned till death.

I still remember the bullet points that i want to. Progress is steady..! :) And i have also kept up with my procrastination and actually completed my second post.! And no more homesickness! Chennai it is. :D

First post :)

       It's been six years since i started a blogger account.! still for some reason the idea of setting up a proper blog had always seemed to be within my grasp! so I've finally decided to start this blog, change the blog address, and dedicate some quality time to blog (and promote it after I've made few decent entries :p ). It's going to be a personal notebook of my ramblings(which im very good at doing). While I try to collect my thoughts on any specific idea, which I'm unable to do so as expected, better i would go off in tangents and enjoy the ride. How fascinating it is, on how quick mind can travel from one thought to another, by the way, after two sentences, completely not having a clue about how did it reach this place and from where! 

It's kinda boring, how life is. This is not what i want to do with my life, certainly. The last two years has been a roller coaster ride. A new opportunity,new place, new language(s) and new people. And two years down the line the same once interesting activity has become a run of the mill routine, that eats you from inside out. It is still one of the biggest nightmare's that i encounter, what am i doing with my life?! to be honest this is the first time I've been outside my home this long. Being alone has it's own advantages too(that i might list in another post). Life has taught me it's lessons with all love, all along. And when facing reality, alone, it is difficult in the beginning,when nothing you've read, learnt and experienced helps you. But it was just matter of time before i realized that, this is what experiences are about, and started taking things with a pinch of salt and with lots of indifference. This was the time when i learnt that I'm an INFP and an HSP. Which lead to lot of self revelations and explanations. I did get to know few people whom I envy because of their patience and experience, and enjoy their virtual companionship. I love talking in analogies, looking at patterns behind the obvious, very interested in knowing what's beyond this realm. It's high time I start looking forward, and stop getting bothered by the voice at the back of my head that keeps tugging me all the time!

Let me list down the things i want to do in the next few years.! 

1.Become more assertive of myself
2.Travel, at least start traveling
3.Get an entry level DSLR (most important learn photography, and not just for profile pictures)
4.Get to know more people
5.Find myself

many points do look foggy. But I'm not the one who starts things with an end in mind. Improvisation and multitasking are few skills that I really love in myself. Few years later, i would definitely read this page and have a good laugh.

People want to survive, I want to Live! (- credits to someone I got to know from a website that went viral in three days)


living.....